Today, the Pineneedle Collective domain (pineneedlecollective.com) expires. Because of that, I thought that it was a fitting time to make a post tying up things here at the Pineneedle Collective, and officially call this "The End" of the blog. This space will still exist - but you can find it at its old blogspot domain, www.pineneedle-collective.blogspot.com. It's probably obvious to most readers of this blog that I no longer make posts here, but that's because I've moved onto bigger, newer things. I have loved my time having this blog - it's been a really important place for me to grow, to express myself and my style, to share my nerdiness with the world, to hide from the day-to-day effects of my chronic illness, and most importantly, meet wonderful people from around the world, many of whom I now consider friends!
I started this blog on the 22nd of July, 2011. At the time, I was working a pretty boring full-time job as a receptionist and also frequently unwell - I kept getting struck down by mysterious migraines and "flu-like" symptoms. But because I had some spare cash for the first time in my life, I was buying a lot of new clothes and, having always considered myself fairly good at "fashion", I wanted a place to share them. After brainstorming names that were vaguely "indie" and suitably "fashion" with one of my friends, it got named "The Pineneedle Collective" after her pub trivia team.
Less than one month later, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune vasculitis, Takayasu's Arteritis. Suddenly, I wasn't able to work as much (although I persevered full-time in total exhaustion for a couple of months before realising it was too difficult), and I wasn't able to go out and party anymore, which is what I had previously spent all my spare time doing. Instead, I put all my energy and time into styling cute outfits and writing posts on this blog as my creative outlet. The "blogosphere" became my place to escape - the place where I wasn't sick, didn't have to deal with the side-effects of medications, or think about my constant doctors appointments. Looking back at that time, I was so scared - but this was the one place where I could switch off that part of my brain and just be me. It took a few years for me to start talking about living with a chronic illness publicly, and now that I'm older, and wiser, I talk openly about living my life with a chronic illness (on my instagram posts) and I'm glad that I do. But I'm also glad I had this space to disappear from it all when it was raw and new.
It was in 2011 that I also discovered the wonderful world of DIY. I had previously learned some very basic hand-sewing skills from my grandma when I was 8, and also attempted a short course in sewing in grade 8 (which I sucked at), but this was the first time that sewing had ever really interested me. With a pair of scissors and some thread, I could modify my clothes to look any way I wanted them to! My first DIY projects were pretty
5 years ago, on Christmas day, my dad bought me a sewing machine. I immediately fell in love with it. I scoured the internet for sewing tutorials and tips. You can see many of the first things I made in the video I made recently below.
I continued blogging my outfits, DIYs and science facts (starting in 2012) for 4 years in this space. I went through a lot of changes in my life - my body changed a lot due to medications/growing up, many friendships fell apart and others grew, I fell in love, I moved out of home, I started studying science at University and worked in a lab, and went overseas for the first time in my life, I started and stopped countless medications. But this blog was the one really constant thing in my life that I could come back to, the one place that never really changed.
Because of this blog, I also got to both meet and collaborate with some really amazing creative people from around the world - both online and in real life. I think that was one of the best things about it. I
Some other really cool things happened - I was on the cover of a magazine, and ever since my older family members have been convinced that I'm famous. I got to write for feminist online-and-real-life-magazine, Birdee (now also closed down). I got to be on one of my favourite science podcasts. All thanks to this blog.
Through the blogging world, I also discovered the concept of "fast fashion" and why it was a real problem (thanks Ragini/curiousfancy!), and started making a real effort to only source and promote secondhand or ethically-made clothing. I started realising that I had a voice, a platform, and had some power to spread a positive message. And I was no longer going to be responsible for the mindless consumption of cheap, poorly made clothing sold by companies using slave labour. Today, this is such an important factor in both the clothes that I wear, my worldview, and a big part of my motivation behind sewing and DIY!
In 2014, after having taught myself how to sew almost exclusively through youtube tutorials, it seemed fitting to make some video tutorials myself. In the beginning of 2014, and at the request of a couple of blog readers to turn my photo tutorials into videos, I made my first video, showing how I made a simple circle-skirt dress! My sewing skills have improved immensely since them, but I'm still pretty proud of that first tutorial!
Well, that youtube thing kind of took off. Thousands of people started watching my videos; which was pretty damn overwhelming, unexpected and, well, cool! I also realised that I liked making videos even more than taking photos! Side story: while I was growing up I used to make silly videos, bribing my brothers into co-staring in them, and would edit them together, burn them to DVDs, and force the whole family to watch them. In fact, back in 2006/7 I even uploaded a couple to youtube - but don't bother trying to find them because they're on "private". But I was able to make use of those video-editing skills that I learned 8 years later!
Then, in 2016 I decided that I was going to try and make this "working on the internet as a content creator" my full-time job. At the time I was mostly getting income from Youtube Adsense - so it was a pretty risky venture. But after launching a Patreon page in January - and receiving some support from generous human beings, both friends and strangers - I was able to cover all my basic expenses for the channel like buying materials and having a studio space to film in! And, at the end of 2016, I can proudly say that I am a full-time content creator (hey buy my merch and help me continue this full-time thing it's super dooper hard haha ;) ;) ;) ;) )
It was also in 2016 that the Pineneedle Collective became, well - abandoned. Making youtube videos fulltime is... a lot of work, and I was also trying to cram in part-time study and dealing with awful side effects from medications as well. I get the occasional stab of guilt for abandoning my baby - the place that started it all - the Pineneedle Collective. But it hasn't ended. It's just grown into new things. It's become my Youtube Channel and new website. It's become a community of amazing DIY'ers across a couple of facebook groups. It's become a worldwide community of people who have come together over their love for sewing and crafting, fashion, thrift-shopping, their body-positivity, or their experiences with chronic illnesses. It's become such an amazing thing that I can't even comprehend. I've been on the cover of local newspapers. I'm going to Vidcon Australia as a featured creator next year. I collaborated with one of the people who TAUGHT me how to sew. If 2011-me had any idea that this was going to happen she wouldn't have believed you. And then she probably would have gone and hidden away somewhere. And never come back out.
Lastly, if you've been a reader of this blog over the past 5 years - thank you. You just being here has meant more to me than you'll ever know. I've read every single comment ever left on this blog (which is 12,286 by the way - and I meant it. I read every one). Your encouraging, kind, witty, heartfelt thoughts at the end of my posts have really helped me through a lot of difficult times, and given me a place to belong when I often felt trapped or lost or confused in the "real world". You've been my extended family, well-wishers and confidants and I wish that I could meet and hug you all.
It's also going to be really nice having this record of this section of my life to look back on in the future. So, with that - Pineneedle Collective, I bid you goodbye.
Lastly, let me leave you with some of my favourite blog photos from the past 5 years, in chronological order:
Much love, always,
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